So we are 75% done with the renovation of our home. I have no other project that I can compare this to- the size, level of renovation, how it was financed, selecting EVERY LITTLE DETAIL etc. were all firsts for me and not something that I can say that I enjoy. I definitely stepped out of my comfort zone for this one. To get an idea of where my head has been, here’s a conversation my husband and I had last night.
F: I can’t believe we’re finally moving in!
Me: Don’t get too excited, it isn’t 100% done yet!
F: You always say that. It’s ok to get excited you know! When we were under contract for the house, I said, “I can’t believe we’re getting this house for this price.” And you said,” I wouldn’t get too excited until we close.” Then when we finally closed on the house, I shared my excitement again and you go, “Yes! But let’s not celebrate “our home” until we get the loan to actually start the work. Until then, there’s still a possibility that we’ll need to sell it.” Then work started and we’re almost done and you still can’t get excited?
Me: I’m nervous because it’s true! You know how many people have gotten to this point and don’t get to 100% completion?
My point in sharing this is, I need to take this moment in time to celebrate what is happening and I haven’t. I’ve been hard on myself and rather than look back and see what I’ve accomplished, I’m looking ahead and finding where I’m falling short with goals I set for myself- non-house related. But the other day, I spent time reflecting on my year thus far- and realized that I have made progress towards my intentions- just not at the speed that I envisioned- and that’s OK. I need to be patient with myself and celebrate the growth- because doing this has really stretched me.
So why go from this project to do something smaller? Knowing that I’ve gotten here and that we’re almost at the finish line- aren’t I prepared to take on a larger project? I talked with a good friend of mine today and told her that I feel like I have big goals but they don’t feel realistic. And she pushed me and said, “Your goals shouldn’t be realistic.” Seriously- they shouldn’t! Realistic = safe. When our goals are unrealistic, we are being pushed outside of our comfort zone.
Installation of siding started today, doors and trim are in, bathrooms are 80% done, paint, kitchen and flooring will be in within the next week or so- and did I mention spring is here? It’s finally coming together and I need to finally share that I AM EXCITED!!!!
Here is a link to the progress https://bit.ly/2zAaiQy and a few pics below. We left a time capsule behind the drywall, inspired by this funny story I found right before drywall went up! https://on.today.com/2BJXAj
